I’m tired of starting off blog posts with an apology. I feel bad that I haven’t written in… 9 months…! It isn’t that I haven’t been cooking, I have. Regularly, I even have banana bread in the oven while I write this and I have a pretty good start on my garden this year. I guess the only way I can explain it is that I feel like I’ve outgrown this blog. I love it. It will always be a beloved project, it documents nearly 5 years of a life well lived. Ups and downs and complete turnarounds. Over 100 recipes. That’s practically a cookbook! But when I sit down to write these days, it isn’t about the magic of sugar and butter or the excitement over the arrival of spring vegetables. My writing focus and my drive to write has changed. In 2011 I was asked to be a part of a group called together to form a non-profit organization. Open Table Cooperative, while it sounds food related, is a movement within the Church of the Brethren that seeks to form a new, far-reaching progressive network within the denomination. We seek to help the church and its members grow and move forward with a unified heart, continuing the work of Jesus in a spirit of bold, visionary, inclusive love. I haven’t talked about it much here mostly because I haven’t been able to figure out how the two worlds come together. I never wanted to be one of those “Christian food bloggers” obsessed with couponing (my own stereotyping!) and evangelizing through recipes. That is SO not me and not who I will ever be, but my fear of being perceived as that kept the two projects separate. I have realized that I can’t sustain both projects. I need to let go of my self-inflicted guilt and responsibility to this blog so I can freely write again. These days my writing energy is going towards writing reflections (aka sermons), developing small group discussion around naming power and privilege within the church and planning large conferences. And even though the rewards don’t usually come in the form of fresh-baked cookies this writing feels good. And isn’t that what writing should do? Pour out of us and leave us elated and energetic? If any of this peaks an interest for you, you can find me over here; http://opentablecoop.org where I am regularly blogging about progressive theology as a queer Christian woman.
In the in-between while I figure out what I hope for this blog I have decided to start a photography project. 365 photographs. One a day, for one year. Documenting a year of life lived. I foresee this being a rather exciting year and I want a way to be able to savor it. Of course, I’ve created a blog to share all the photographs with anyone interested. If you’d like to savor this year with me you can see the photos on Wild Geese and Wool Socks, I will start May 1. (Curious about the name? Look here!) Real Food NW will stay here, all recipes intact and who knows maybe I’ll even be able to organize them, finally! Thank you for journeying with me and putting up with my inconsistency. I have a feeling Real Food NW may have a revived role in my life somewhere down the road.